So lots has been going on and I have been dying to tell you guys, but I never really had a chance to catch my breath. I know I am so dramatic. But really, it has been crazy! I would love to tell you the changes that’s been going on in my life and yes it gets a little personal, yay? ….. Sorry it gets so longgg.
The spring break for high school and college are on different weeks, and so a few of my friends that were away in college, came down the week before my spring break. Well the guy I use to date came down and while I thought I was totally fine hanging around him, we had some awkward issues and such. I tried to talk to him about this, but I felt ignored, so I messaged him and we both came to a conclusion; we just can not be friends. After going back and forth, trying to wrap everything around in my mind that it was over forever, I talked to my friend on the phone for about an hour and then finally went to bed around 3 a.m. It sucked, but at the same time I felt sooo much better. Like it was what I needed to finally hear that it was done and there was no hope.
My relationship with Jesus had been slacking and I still am struggling with it. I have a lack of motivation and just did not feel like talking about my feelings with anyone, not even to God. I knew in my mind that I needed to surrender all to him, but it is not an easy thing to do when you were wrapped up around someone else for a whole year.
The next few days though, I truly felt God with me. Even though I wasn’t consistently reading and keeping up with God’s word, I was still trying to ask for help from him and I saw him guiding me! I was happy! It was like 2 days later and I was excited for the days to come. Then I was on spring break, and he went back to college and I went on vacation. I had so much fun, even if it was the beach (I live 10 minutes from one.) It was nice to get away and be with my family and friends. I also didn’t get sunburned which is like a all time record for me, being in the sun for 4 days straight. Then on the last day of spring break I was able to joined my mom in going to Jacksonville to see my brother’s new place. I love it there and am a bit jealous of him (haha!). He has a really nice neighborhood and a cute apartment. It was nice to have all four of us as a family there (divorced parents) to spend the entire day together.
We got home super late- 5am! And so I got to miss school that Monday - woot! It was a nice way to end my break. Going back to school always helps keep my mind busy, and people were noticing how happy I was and asking about my trip and so it felt nice. I felt loved. I only had school two days that week because I went on another trip with my church to go visit Liberty University in Virginia. We left Wednesday at 5pm and so I missed Thursday and Friday. The trip was super fun and the best part was someone paid for me last minute! Another awesome God moment!! Since I have my heart set on going to another college (where I feel God has called me) I have no intention on going to Liberty anymore so there is no need to pay to go on the trip. Some stuff came up with a friend and they allowed me to go in there place. I was super grateful and super excited for the opportunity. It is so amazing to me! It was nice to hang around the friends who I never really have the chance to be with being in different schools and I meant some new ones on the bus and stuff!
Lastly I would like to share with everyone is I have a job now! No, I am not telling you this to rub in all your faces, but I am saying this to let you all know how busy I now am and will try my best to post as much as I can! I am just really excited and grateful again for this opportunity because I never had one and I just turned 18. My family has really been pushing me to get one and so one of my family members actually had connections with the medical offices and was able to get me a job there! I love it, and though many would find it boring, filing and scanning medical papers, I am so happy to be there! It also works around my school and church schedule perfectly and so it is all so much more evident that God’s hand is in this.
So yeah now I am just finishing up the school year and getting ready for graduation and prom, which by the way my friend said he would go with me, so now I have a date for prom! Yay! So yeah I will try to keep you all updated and post more things on the blog and if any of you have some challenge ideas, feel free to message me! I love you all and praying for you! Have a great day!
P.S. I can not believe you read this much, thank youuuuu!
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